you are a priceless princess.
loved with a steadfast love.
from your heavenly father above.
This week has been amazing, and it keeps on getting better and better. God has been challenging me so much in relation to how I behave and act all of the time. I went to Easterfest and for the bands I wanted to hear I jumped around in the mosh pit, screaming lyrics, and enjoying myself, yet I found myself on the hill of mainstage Sunday night listening to hillsong just sitting there. God really challenged me as to why it mattered so much about what style of music it was as to whether I jumped around and screamed. Worship isn’t about the music, it’s about my heart attitude and that should be the same all of the time. It doesn’t matter whether I’m at a concert or at church, whether the song is upbeat or slow, if I’m going to jump to a song at a concert, why can’t I jump to it at church? If I’m going to raise my hands and sway to a song at church, why can’t I do that at a concert? As soon as I take the focus off of me, and onto God and what my heart says to do, I can worship God properly and not compare myself to others. I might be 20 but sometimes I feel like I’m still 13 with the way that I compare myself to others. To make things worse I was surrounded by couples and people in love on a weekend where I was celebrating my 20th and I had always thought that I would’ve been engaged or at least in a serious relationship by this stage instead of being single, liking a guy who is one of my closest friends and who does not realize that I exist in that context.
I thought many different times over the weekend that I had ruined our friendship, because when I saw him I didn’t know what to say even though I really wanted to talk to him. But through all of this God has been faithful. He has restored my friendship with this guy twice, and keeps on challenging me. After that eventful weekend, I’m currently in Sydney with a select few of my youth helping out with a youth camp. I love it!!! SERIOUSLY!!! Instead of being a team leader like I am at my usual youth camp, this time I’m a senior leader, and even though it has taken me a full day to feel like I finally fit in and know what I’m doing, I love it. It’s so different from what I’m used to and I’m just lucky to have an awesome senior leadership team like I do. I miss the intimacy I have with the youth as a team leader, but God has provided me with so many challenges, and I love it. Though there are quite a few things which are the same as all camps like 6am meetings, having to go all dorm nazi on dorms of girls who won’t be quiet, counseling youth, late nights, no sleep, awesome food, and amazing friends. God has blessed me so much this camp by providing a friend here in Sydney who is my age, and who is like a NSW version of me. I’m learning so much and having a great time while I do so. So excuse me while I have fun :P
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A Christy and Todd Valentines day post
Yes I know I’m a day early, but I really don’t care. :P
This post is all about my love of fictional characters, especially the ones in my favourite book series by Robin Jones Gunn. I first discovered these characters when I read the second set of books in the series (a complete series on their own) the Sierra Jensen series, where I met and fell in love with Sierra, Christy, Katie, Todd, Doug, Tracy, Paul, and Gus the bus. I found myself relating to Sierra, who was the one with all the guy friends, but nobody wanted to date her, and then she falls madly in love with a guy in Scotland whom she is writing to, but he only wants to be friends. I cried, laughed, became friends with,and more important related myself to her. I had been where Sierra was, heck I was where Sierra was, I knew exactly what she was going through, and to be honest I absolutely hated it. I watched all my friends find the love of their lives, and get married and be happy, and I was all alone.
